Recovery

Recently, I got back the feeling of being "Sidney Foong".

Throughout many things I had experienced, make me change a lot! I become moody all the day, the smile on my face is disappearing and always think of nonsense(negative side), feeling pity of myself. All because of the assignment and some complicated stuffs.It was a hard time for me, but i have a some good friends help me a lot~ They cheep me up, listen to me, try to do something to make me happy. Sorry for those things and make you all worried about me.

The blues is gone. I gone back to the original Sidney Foong that you all use to know, the Sidney that likes to play , to have fun, to talk about the 38 things and blah blah blah~~ My smiley face is back~~ hohohoho~~!!!!

Keep it on Sidney~!

No more waitings!

Actually today i date my friend to go sing k @ Sunway Pyramid. She asked me to wait for her 12pm @ Mid Valley Opp Bus stop, then we go together. 

I scared she wait for me, so i reach there in time 12pm. Then i waited for 1 hour, she hasn't turn up yet , i called and smsed her, but she didn't pick up my calls nor replying me. I have a little worried about her, thought she forgets I waiting or she lost her way here. So I smsed and told her, I'm leaving, but actually i just go into the mall and go shopping. 

Waiting an hour, I'm no feeling of angriness. I just felt disappointing, because my the other friends also put me in fool. They even worse, make me waited them for 2 hours and not just once.They will only appear together. I'm very unhappy with this. Why always treat me like that~! Did I so that not important~!Do they have the passion to meet with me? They make me hanging around like nut, do they feel sorry to me?????? After they saw me, they said nothing and just pretend nothing happened. At first I can pretend nothing happened, I "forgive" them for making me wait for so long. But recently they do it again to me~! I also don't why i still wanna wait for them. I tell myself, just let it go let it go, but after I thought back,  i felt abandon and angry! I treated myself so badly! 

Now i premise myself, I never treat myself so bad any more!

Thank for your ♥

Thank for being so good to me.
Although we are not together now but you always keep me in your heart.
You update me frequently, you really care for me. You worried for me if i in blues. (sorry to let you worry)

You treat like me a precious jewel. You make me feel my importance.
Really appreciate what you had gave me. It is really my luck to know you.
I'll never forget you.

Stay good take care~
♥sidney

No more odd feelings

Yesterday my friends and I went to the new open shopping mall on B.Bintang_ Fahrenheit 88. 

I take monorail to my destination. When i reach B.Bintang, they haven't contact me so have a little walk on Lot10. Then I passed by Adidas, just take a look outside the shopping. When I turn back, I saw my friends laugh at me. they Followed me from the monorail. Luckily I didn't do something funny.


Then we walk to the new mall. Most of the shop haven't open yet, there are many new brands in the mall. Then one of the friends wanna have lunch, he is starving. Then we have our lunch at a Japanese restaurant. In the lunch we chat about the funny things of our internship time.


Suddenly, I realize they wore the same colour shirt AGAIN~! Actually that day I also wanna wear a dark gray shirt, but i change my mind. This proves we have no fate~T.T


After lunch we walk over to Pavilion to continue our walk. On the way to Pavilion, we need to cross a busy road, the traffic light is going to turn light, i ask them to walk quickly, wanna cross the road or not. One of friends say yes and pushed me softly to cross the road. But both of them didn't cross, leave me alone on the other side of the road. Huh! so bad purposely push me cross the road first, so that they can be with together.
( Kidding la~!)

Then we walk about the mall. The reason I went here really wanna shop. But i buy nothing, they bought a shorts and a jeans. One of my friend tried on a pair of jeans, me and the other friend also says he looked good in the jeans, but he hesitate. He scared to we will cheat him to buy the jeans, and tried on the jeans many times. So funny and cute. After buying the jeans, we purposely play a joke with him and act in front of him, my friend told him the jeans actually looked like bell-bottomed pants (what he worried about), then i say
why you tell him. Then his face immediately turn black and stare at us fiercely. Then we laugh at him , revealed was a joke. 


After that , is time to go home.




Photos

Having lunch

Fried Saba and fried Udon

"push" me cross de road 1st, so happy there~

See the expression of him in the 1st and last photo! Obviously different. Notice the same color clothing they wore.

Feeling:
Simple and nothing special again , but feeling happy be with my friends. No more odd feeling being with them. Really enjoy the time we were together. But happy moment passes fast, wish we can spend more times together.

雨

最近有人提醒我，原来我喜欢下雨的.
我突然恍然大悟~！因为我不知道什么时候遗忘了这件事！
人啊~都在拼命的忙碌着，让最原始的我也遗忘了。


我喜欢雨~！
雨带来了凉爽,
雨洗涤了一天的烦恼，
雨让我觉得特别的宁静，打开了窗，躺在床上什么都不用想~


雨
当我撑着那把蓝色的雨伞时,在大雨中我感受到雨伞给我的安全感。
没有安全感的我，在这时也感觉的到伞给我的保护。


像朋友和我没有联络，我就会觉得大家已忘记了我。我需要大家的慰问，来安抚我没安全感的心。


时间过了，经过了不少事物，逼我成长。
我还能找回我以前的单纯吗？ 
静静的聆听雨声，我想 还可以吧。。。


我爱。雨

No more the important one

Last time my friends use to treat me the best~~ everything they know, they will have the passion to let me know, to share the latest news to me. They really good to me, with them i feel my importance. What they do also think about me. I'm very appreciate they treat me a treasure.

Because i have the perfection. Make me feels other people  also need to treat me like them. I know this is not right, but i can't control myself~  I know many people are very caring to me ( try to hypnotize myself), but i'm greedy, i wanna more~~!!

For many times, i be the last one to know the news, no more freshness to talk about the topic, they already discussed about it.
Recently really feel abandon, if i didn't find them,  there are nobody bother my existence. i don't know what is happening behind of me~ nobody tells me. By the time i know the stuff, it is already past tense.

Someone says if any unhappy stuff happen, the person will leave the key person. But actually is useless. If the key person leaves, happiness is never comes back. I think if I slowly leave the them, maybe is the solution. But am I really willing do it???????

Sometimes I felt lost, they always say i'm important, without me, is also without a happiness. But is it really like that. I can't feel my importance any more, if I wasn't there, happiness still remains. There are nobody think of me any more, ah maybe yes, but the decision, conclusion was already made.

They are so important to me, everything i did, i think of them first. I will appreciate the times that we are together. But seem like i'm the one who have the passion. I have nothing left to say.

What can I do! The use to be 'treasure' is no more treasure, now just a unnoticeable 'thing'.

Go "gaigai" with friends

My mom's birthday is coming. I haven't get her a gift yet, so i date my friends to go shopping with me~
Actually the reason i date them ,not only for buy gift, but wanna be with them.


That i reach kl very early, we date about 2.00pm at Pavilion, i 1.35pm already reach kl. Both of my friends haven't reach yet ,so i back to my life~~!!! Go to watch magazine~ go to bookstore.......after these places they still haven't arrive yet , so i went to Suria KLCC myself.


I search for the gift myself 1s lo~ since nothing to do~ i went to Sony-center, play around the phones, then went to Kinokunia Book Store to read to books and magazines, later 3.45pm i walk to pavilion, one of my friends only call me. Then the other one smsed to at the same time. Both of them reach at the same time , wore the same color clothing (not the first time), haiz~~!! How matching they are.


Then we walked into many shops to search for the gift and one of my friend wanna buy shorts, search for it also lo~  later i find a small bag for my mom. After that, we went to Pepper lunch to have our dinner, my friends tried before , but this is my first time ^^

Having dinner @ Pepper Lunch, Pavilion.8.10pm

Later we take bus together, go to one of our friend's house and stay over night there~ Nothing special that day. Oh one of my friends ask we all to go have a drink, i thought he won't come , but he came~! Lost already lo, predict wrongly.


The next day, originally my friend and i wanna go have Old Town's breakfast. But one piggy(he) haven't wake up yet. So our plan is ruined~! T.T Later my friend invite me to watch drama with her. After drama, we discuss about our childhood idol "Pokemon". Both of us watched before ,but the oldest one, nope~!
One of my friends nickname is "Pikachu", then i say the oldest one is "Raichu" , then my friend said i'm "傻鸭"~~!! I don't want~~!! I want to be "Pichu" haha~


Then one of my friends wanna to go back her place to have a bathe and prepare to go Sunway Pyramid. After waiting her at the lobby, we go to take LRT to our destination.
On the LRT, went we reach Pasar Seni, i wanna get out from the train, but they stopped me , and the oldest tell me , we stop at Kelana Jaya. Gosh~! Miscommunication~! Never mind we also reach there safely.


Once we reach there, we wanna eat ,but don't know what to eat and keep asking me. Actually i'm   find on what to eat. But the oldest keep ask me what to eat, i was curious. The other friend told me he bothers about my feeling. Is it?? If yes i really appreciate it thank o~~~!!


After that we walked around the mall. The oldest need to find his brother to pass him something from their mom. Then we went to Watson, the oldest wanna buy wet tissue and ask my opinion which one to buy. The other friend told me he wanna buy toner, after he tried one time. she say to the oldest.
"你去看你的东西啦~我跟w.ken去研究一下" then she pull me to the department.  I feel so surprise and delighted~~hehe~~ why she ask me one~??? I didn't expect she will ask me together. In Chinese this can be call "受宠若惊“. 


Then we went to a store. She wanna look again the PINK bag she desire. He search for his shorts and i go for my favorite Bags~~~!!!!hehe~~~
Later he ask me wanna leave already is it, then he said:"你等我买了裤子，才可以走啊" Huh~ me again~ Surprise again~~!!! But least happy~~hehe~!!


Later i need to go off first , because it is my mom's big day~! hahahahahahahahah~


photos:

Beverage he ordered.

me ^_^

Q

I found myself so natural in this photo. *_*

Feeling:
These 2 days are very simple,nothing special happened. But for me, I really enjoy being with them. Maybe sometime I'll feel odd, being with them. But forget 'bout it~! The little little things you may not notice you do for me, makes my day greats,thanks! Really like to be with you two~ Hopefully you like me too.


Love, 
sid f 03/09