Last time my friends use to treat me the best~~ everything they know, they will have the passion to let me know, to share the latest news to me. They really good to me, with them i feel my importance. What they do also think about me. I'm very appreciate they treat me a treasure.
Because i have the perfection. Make me feels other people also need to treat me like them. I know this is not right, but i can't control myself~ I know many people are very caring to me ( try to hypnotize myself), but i'm greedy, i wanna more~~!!
For many times, i be the last one to know the news, no more freshness to talk about the topic, they already discussed about it.
Recently really feel abandon, if i didn't find them, there are nobody bother my existence. i don't know what is happening behind of me~ nobody tells me. By the time i know the stuff, it is already past tense.
Someone says if any unhappy stuff happen, the person will leave the key person. But actually is useless. If the key person leaves, happiness is never comes back. I think if I slowly leave the them, maybe is the solution. But am I really willing do it???????
Sometimes I felt lost, they always say i'm important, without me, is also without a happiness. But is it really like that. I can't feel my importance any more, if I wasn't there, happiness still remains. There are nobody think of me any more, ah maybe yes, but the decision, conclusion was already made.
They are so important to me, everything i did, i think of them first. I will appreciate the times that we are together. But seem like i'm the one who have the passion. I have nothing left to say.
What can I do! The use to be 'treasure' is no more treasure, now just a unnoticeable 'thing'.
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