Letter for her

♫~我给你的你用不着了
你也失去该有的快乐
付出的温柔再不属于我
你无福消受谁应该难过♫~

昨天刚刚过了中考。考试时，我看见你彷徨的对着卷纸，我问你还不快点做吗？不时间了。你说你不会，在等我。我看见你不知所措的样子心理也特别为你着急。
还记得之前我整天叮咛你要去上课吗？我就是不要你在考试的时候不会做。我还特的遍个骗话要你来说叫你揽着艾薇，好让我可以上课。我酱子做也要让你有上到课，考试的时候就不用背到半死。可是，你好像多次都没听我的话。

还记得有一次，我和你在讨论功课，我叫你劝彬来上课吗？你还说了我为什么为了他而和你吵架。我其实也只不过关心他而已。作为他的朋友，看见他这样，难道不劝劝他吗？我叫你劝他是因为他比较听你的话，我说什么他应该不会理会的，所以我才叫你去啊~
或许我在这件事上真的是多事了。

还记得promo web的presentation吗？我不是一直要你present吗？你说不要。我还装肚子不舒服来叫你present.我知道你很害怕，很紧张。因为我觉得那次的presentation比较容易，内容也不多。所以才叫你去啊~好让你能练一练胆量。可是你还是不要了。我其实也想要你克服你的恐惧而已罢了~

有没有觉得我好像不同了。你没来上课我没联络你了。以前看到你上网，就很想跟你聊天。可是最近我没有了。你病了我没有问候你了。你去哪里我也没有问你了。我想我以前做这些事应该有令你觉得很烦吧~

最近你身体因为压力搞到不舒服了，我想多多少少因为我给于你的压力吧~就是因为我多事，常常叫你记得做这个做那个，你才会有压力的。 回想起，你说过有一次彬因为不要去miss teng的presentation，而由我带头逼他一定要去。让他觉得有压力/不安的感觉，我深感歉意，我现在知道了，当时的我是很多事~！有机会的话帮我向他不好意思~我不是特地的。



Feelings
我写这篇文章，不是为了博取什么同情还是别的。也不是为了说我对你多好。只想让你知道我在做什么。我没有生气你，我没有讨厌你。
若这篇文章有令你有什么误会/不爽，请告诉我。我真的不知道，你几时生气/不爽我的。

the year of 09~

在09年我做了不少美丽我人生的事。一整年来，真的做了很多很多的事

让我回顾一下呗~

Jan

迎接新的一年
农历新年的时候我去了风光明媚的kuala Selangor。超美的。

Feb

人生第一次下芙蓉，去朋友的家住，玩了几天，去了不少地方可是还有地方没有去到哦。还记得是元宵节呢~
看了我的帅管家，
败犬女王，


Mar
为了功课要拍戏咯~
在sunway吃了超级丰富的sushi大餐
Apr
拍了真人故事的戏！alive
要和好友说再见了~还好我们友谊像钻石般坚硬！
May

我最特别的生日。我与好友去了停泊岛
上了advance diploma~
认识了新朋友_Xiuq and lewei

jun

jul
与朋友去petrosaints (开心）

Aug

Sept

Oct

Nov

Dec
与form5好友一起出新加坡玩
第一次在那里跨年，看了一场绚丽感动的烟花

有些东西我忘了哦~如果大家记得，请留comment给我啦~~

Recovery

Recently, I got back the feeling of being "Sidney Foong".

Throughout many things I had experienced, make me change a lot! I become moody all the day, the smile on my face is disappearing and always think of nonsense(negative side), feeling pity of myself. All because of the assignment and some complicated stuffs.It was a hard time for me, but i have a some good friends help me a lot~ They cheep me up, listen to me, try to do something to make me happy. Sorry for those things and make you all worried about me.

The blues is gone. I gone back to the original Sidney Foong that you all use to know, the Sidney that likes to play , to have fun, to talk about the 38 things and blah blah blah~~ My smiley face is back~~ hohohoho~~!!!!

Keep it on Sidney~!

No more waitings!

Actually today i date my friend to go sing k @ Sunway Pyramid. She asked me to wait for her 12pm @ Mid Valley Opp Bus stop, then we go together. 

I scared she wait for me, so i reach there in time 12pm. Then i waited for 1 hour, she hasn't turn up yet , i called and smsed her, but she didn't pick up my calls nor replying me. I have a little worried about her, thought she forgets I waiting or she lost her way here. So I smsed and told her, I'm leaving, but actually i just go into the mall and go shopping. 

Waiting an hour, I'm no feeling of angriness. I just felt disappointing, because my the other friends also put me in fool. They even worse, make me waited them for 2 hours and not just once.They will only appear together. I'm very unhappy with this. Why always treat me like that~! Did I so that not important~!Do they have the passion to meet with me? They make me hanging around like nut, do they feel sorry to me?????? After they saw me, they said nothing and just pretend nothing happened. At first I can pretend nothing happened, I "forgive" them for making me wait for so long. But recently they do it again to me~! I also don't why i still wanna wait for them. I tell myself, just let it go let it go, but after I thought back,  i felt abandon and angry! I treated myself so badly! 

Now i premise myself, I never treat myself so bad any more!

Thank for your ♥

Thank for being so good to me.
Although we are not together now but you always keep me in your heart.
You update me frequently, you really care for me. You worried for me if i in blues. (sorry to let you worry)

You treat like me a precious jewel. You make me feel my importance.
Really appreciate what you had gave me. It is really my luck to know you.
I'll never forget you.

Stay good take care~
♥sidney

No more odd feelings

Yesterday my friends and I went to the new open shopping mall on B.Bintang_ Fahrenheit 88. 

I take monorail to my destination. When i reach B.Bintang, they haven't contact me so have a little walk on Lot10. Then I passed by Adidas, just take a look outside the shopping. When I turn back, I saw my friends laugh at me. they Followed me from the monorail. Luckily I didn't do something funny.


Then we walk to the new mall. Most of the shop haven't open yet, there are many new brands in the mall. Then one of the friends wanna have lunch, he is starving. Then we have our lunch at a Japanese restaurant. In the lunch we chat about the funny things of our internship time.


Suddenly, I realize they wore the same colour shirt AGAIN~! Actually that day I also wanna wear a dark gray shirt, but i change my mind. This proves we have no fate~T.T


After lunch we walk over to Pavilion to continue our walk. On the way to Pavilion, we need to cross a busy road, the traffic light is going to turn light, i ask them to walk quickly, wanna cross the road or not. One of friends say yes and pushed me softly to cross the road. But both of them didn't cross, leave me alone on the other side of the road. Huh! so bad purposely push me cross the road first, so that they can be with together.
( Kidding la~!)

Then we walk about the mall. The reason I went here really wanna shop. But i buy nothing, they bought a shorts and a jeans. One of my friend tried on a pair of jeans, me and the other friend also says he looked good in the jeans, but he hesitate. He scared to we will cheat him to buy the jeans, and tried on the jeans many times. So funny and cute. After buying the jeans, we purposely play a joke with him and act in front of him, my friend told him the jeans actually looked like bell-bottomed pants (what he worried about), then i say
why you tell him. Then his face immediately turn black and stare at us fiercely. Then we laugh at him , revealed was a joke. 


After that , is time to go home.




Photos

Having lunch

Fried Saba and fried Udon

"push" me cross de road 1st, so happy there~

See the expression of him in the 1st and last photo! Obviously different. Notice the same color clothing they wore.

Feeling:
Simple and nothing special again , but feeling happy be with my friends. No more odd feeling being with them. Really enjoy the time we were together. But happy moment passes fast, wish we can spend more times together.

雨

最近有人提醒我，原来我喜欢下雨的.
我突然恍然大悟~！因为我不知道什么时候遗忘了这件事！
人啊~都在拼命的忙碌着，让最原始的我也遗忘了。


我喜欢雨~！
雨带来了凉爽,
雨洗涤了一天的烦恼，
雨让我觉得特别的宁静，打开了窗，躺在床上什么都不用想~


雨
当我撑着那把蓝色的雨伞时,在大雨中我感受到雨伞给我的安全感。
没有安全感的我，在这时也感觉的到伞给我的保护。


像朋友和我没有联络，我就会觉得大家已忘记了我。我需要大家的慰问，来安抚我没安全感的心。


时间过了，经过了不少事物，逼我成长。
我还能找回我以前的单纯吗？ 
静静的聆听雨声，我想 还可以吧。。。


我爱。雨